When you are as out of the loop with technology as I am, starting a blog seems super intimidating. And trust me, it is, so please bear with me as I get started on this process. 😉 I have been a huge procrastinator with starting Called Upon Water, and it has made me appreciate how patient God is with His children. About this time last year I had a tug on my heart to start a blog. One of the biggest questions I revolved around was “what is the title going to be?” It was amazing to see God already at work in this. I started thinking about all of my favorite bible stories and how each one spoke to me in such a profound way. As I was reflecting on God’s goodness, I was reminded how close He was to my husband and I on our wedding day. Nathan and I wanted our wedding to be completely focused on Jesus. After all, it was because of Him that we were getting married. We chose the song “Oceans” by Hillsong for me to walk down the aisle to. Little did we know how much the lyrics would become a blueprint of what we were going to have to do in our lives. The song starts with;
“You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand”
In Matthew 14:22-33 the story is told of Jesus walking on water. There is so much that has happened that has lead up to this point, but one key thing to remember is that the disciples that have seen Jesus perform miracles and have heard his sermons, still do not believe that He is the son of God. They literally just watched Him feed 5,000 people with two fish and five loaves of bread.An impossible situation was made possible before their eyes, and they STILL questioned Him. Again, I am so thankful that God is incredibly patient.
I don’t know about you, but that reminds me a lot of myself. There have been so many instances in my life that can only be explained by God, but even after that, I still didn’t believe He was who He said. So, even though it seems like the disciples are being a bit ridiculous when they don’t believe Jesus is the Son of God, I have to take a step back and remember that I was once in their position. I did the exact same thing when Jesus was proving Himself to me.
After Jesus performs the miracle of feeding 5,000, the disciples are loaded onto a boat and He retreats to a mountain to pray. Out on the lake, it began to storm. Not like a gentle little rainstorm – more like a booming thunderstorm that caused the winds to crash the waves against the boat. Let’s just say that it wasn’t smooth sailing. I can’t even imagine what the disciples were feeling at that time. They had literally dropped everything to follow a man claiming to be God’s son, and now they are in a boat in the middle of a storm and He is nowhere to be found. I’m sure they felt abandoned, tricked, and angry.
Right before dawn came, Jesus walked out on the lake to them. The bible says that the disciples were terrified and they thought that He was a ghost! He immediately called out to them telling them that it was Him, and to have courage and not be afraid. I love how Peter responds to Him. Verse 28 says; “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied,” tell me to come to you on the water.” And Jesus did just that.
BOOM. That was it. Peter did not hesitate. He crawled out of that boat, and set his feet on that water. And did he sink?! Nope. Welllll, not at first. See, when Peter had his eyes focused on Jesus, he could walk on water like he had done it all his life. But keep in mind, there was a storm that was raging. Once he remembered the chaos around him and took his eyes off of Jesus, he doubted and began to sink. I love how Jesus was right there to rescue Him when he was submerging under the crashing waves. That’s exactly what God does with us when we drift from Him; He rescues us, too. He always has His mighty hand of grace extended out to us, hoping that we will come running to Him. He is a Father who longs to have fellowship with His children.
I love what happens after this rescue mission. Jesus and Peter climb back into the boat with the others, and the bible says that the winds died down and that all of the disciples worshiped Jesus and proclaimed that He was the Son of God. It took all of that convincing for them to finally realize that He was the one!! And I was the exact same way! When I read this story, I think so much about when I first came to Jesus. I had known some of the bible, and I knew the basics of the gospel. But I had no idea what it really meant, and to be honest, I doubted that it was even real. I just thought Christianity was another religion.
But then, I had a storm of my own. More like a category 5 hurricane. I felt no hope. I felt lost. I felt like I didn’t matter. When I least expected it, Jesus revealed Himself to me. He came after me. In my mind, I was battling with choosing to believe in Him, or try the next thing to fill my empty life. Just like Jesus called Peter to walk to Him, He called me upon water. And I went. For the first time in my life, I felt peace. I felt acceptance. I felt forgiveness. I felt complete. And just like Peter, I went walking on water knowing that Jesus was who I was searching for. I had my eyes on Him because He was my last hope. I had to abandon everything I knew to embrace a love that I had been looking for my whole life. And it was worth every step.
My life has since been changed by the love of Christ, and I am on a continuous journey to become more like Him. Every day is an opportunity for me to share the love of Jesus and to show God’s glory to a dying world that desperately needs it. And that is exactly why I started this blog. It is just another outlet for me to share my heart, to give some hope, and to help lead people to the cross. People who are in the exact same situation that I had once been in. People who may possibly stuck in an addiction, filling themselves with junk that will never satisfy, or held down by heavy chains of their past mistakes. If this is you, I am going to tell you right now that you are Peter. You are in a boat being rocked by the windstorm gusts of a life searching for what will make you complete. And Jesus is calling you. He is asking you to trust Him completely with whatever it is that you are holding on to. He is welcoming you to partake in a fulfilling and beautiful life with Him. He is wanting you to know that the sin He conquered on that cross was payment for every single sin you have ever committed. He is waiting to reveal to you that it’s truth that He rose from the dead, and that He conquered death forever. He is ready to give you the gift of eternal life and to make a home in your heart. He is calling you upon water. Will you go?
Blessings, friend. ❤