Where the Wildflowers Grow

 

 

flowers in the barren land

Isn’t it scary how fast time can fly by? It feels like yesterday I was writing my last post. I never thought I would get a point where my “yesterday” would feel like 7 months ago, yet, here we are. In these past few months, I have been a busy bee! I have navigated through the waters of job hunting, and thankfully I was willing to listen to where the Lord was leading me to be. Nathan, a few friends of ours, and I have also started a small group that meets on Sunday nights, and that has been a bigger blessing to us than words can express. In May, my dear friend Lydia was married to the man of her dreams in the beautiful land of North Carolina. I was fortunate enough to snag my beautiful cousin to have the best road trip ever through the Smokey Mountains to attend Lydia’s wedding. The month after that, Nathan and I boarded a plane to Denver, CO where we ventured to Colorado Springs before making a trek to Yellowstone with an amazing friend of ours. And last but not least, I just returned home last week from traveling to the Black Hills in SD with my mom and to see one of my closest friends! And yet, even through all of the fun, the distraction, and the travel, my ears and my heart had remained open to whatever God wanted to reveal to me through His word and His beautiful creation.

And that, my friends, is what caused myself to wander back to this blog. First of all, I have to thank you, whoever is reading this, for taking the time out of your busy schedule to read what it is that has been laid on my heart. I pray over each of my posts before I submit them, and it is no different with this one. The things that I share are the raw side of me. I’m just simply a girl who loves Jesus, and who is trying to be more like Him every day while still stumbling along the way. My prayer for you is that you would feel peace while “escaping” for just a few moments. I pray that you would leave encouraged, hopeful, challenged, and pursuing and loving Jesus more than you were before you came. I take no credit for myself for the things that I say to reach anyone. I am merely a servant who is working in the Kingdom of the most High God. He is the one who deserves ALL of the praise, glory, and exaltation, now and forevermore. It’s because of Him that I was able to breathe my last breath, and it’s because of Him that I am who I am today. The more that I learn about the Lord, the more I realize just how much I don’t know about Him. He is bigger than my thoughts could ever imagine, and He is more Holy and pure than my heart could ever capture. But isn’t that the magnificent mystery of it all? That we are all made in His image, that we are all created to be in relationship with Him. Yet, us being who we are, and Him being who He is, He calls us into a relationship with Him that we broke. That through the wounds of His precious Son, we are made pure and perfect in His sight. And that even though we have turned away from Him countless times, He still waits with open arms to welcome us home to Him. The gospel is truly a marvel.

That is what was flooding through my mind as I was gazing upon the grandeur of the mountains in Yellowstone National Park. The fact that I know the one who made them, and He knows me. While we were winding through the roads of the park, each turn seemed to bring a new surprise. Yellowstone is full of waterfalls, forests, meadows, wildlife, and of course, geysers. Being my first time there, I was trying to soak up as much as I could. While still battling through infertility, the works of His hand reminded me of the goodness of God, that I could trust Him through what we were facing. It’s almost as if seeing the beauty of the land around me was a reminder of who He is.

The geysers themselves were such an interesting spectacle for me to view. They were so unique, so beautiful, and so… stinky. If you have never laid your eyes on these beauties, I would encourage you to A.) go in person, B.) at least check out this link in the meantime. “https://www.yellowstonepark.com/things-to-do/yellowstone-geyser-basins-map” target=”_blank”>Geysers 🙂 It just shows an additional dynamic to the creativity of God. One of the most interesting things about them was their landscape. It almost seemed as if you were looking at a completely different planet. The majority of the area around them is dry, crumbly.. barren. However,in the background, you can see huge trees and even some lush green areas where the geyser area ends. One day, as I was looking upon the land of one of the geyser spots we stopped to look at, I was hit with a bitter realization. The way that the land around them looked was exactly how I felt on the inside. Dry, not fruitful, desolate. And of course, very, very barren. I remember the devil taunting me, telling me that that’s who I was and that it wasn’t going to change. I was always going to be barren. I would never be life giving, and God wasn’t going to change it. Without saying anything to Nathan or Valerie, the friend we went with, I battled in my mind with what I was being told. Instead of giving in and believing those lies, I tried as hard as I could to keep my eyes on Jesus and on His goodness.

A few moments after this had been going on, tears were welling up in my eyes as I saw one of the most beautiful scenes unfolding in front of me. Right smack dab in the middle of this barren land, there was life. Yes, life!! Next to a dried out branch, there laid a lush green patch of grass growing with yellow wildflowers reaching up to the sun as far as they could go. God was showing me something extraordinary in that moment.. that in the most desolate, barren places, He is still the God of the impossible. He is still working beauty in the most painful, dark circumstances. And ultimately, He is the one who holds the victory. I was so thankful that in my moment of despair, I was able to run the Lord and hide in Him as my refuge. And through that battle, He still showed me His goodness.

I don’t know what battle you are in the midst of. Maybe like me, you are battling infertility. Maybe you are in a financial crisis and feel no way out of it. Perhaps there has just recently been a medical diagnosis that you were not expecting. Maybe you are grieving the loss of a loved one. Or, maybe you feel as if you’re coming to the end of yourself, and you are weary and desperate for rest. While I don’t know the circumstances, the Lord of all does. I know that He has promises written to you in His word, I know that He alone can be your refuge, and that He will carry you through whatever battle you are fighting. His word is true, that He does create beauty from ashes. What He asks us to do is have the faith that that is true. No matter what a situation may look like, He is still the God of the impossible. He can calm the wind and waves of a storm to be still with one single command. And He has the power, even in the most barren of places, to make the wildflowers grow.

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Isaiah 61:3 -to grant to those who mourn in Zion— to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit; that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he may be glorified.

Hebrews 11:1 -Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Psalm 77:14 -You are the God who works wonders; you make known your power among the peoples.

Psalm 46:1-3
God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change And though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; Though its waters roar and foam, Though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah.

16 thoughts on “Where the Wildflowers Grow

  1. Thank you Tareja!! You are a beautiful example of trusting in God and believing that His Grace is sufficient!! I’m so very proud of you and so is He!!! You brought tears to my eyes and again when I saw your face!! I love you so much💕

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  2. That was beautiful Tareja… and it made me cry. I am dealing with depression and laziness. I have no desire, no ambition, no joy anymore. I tried to quit smoking and only made it 7 weeks, but those 7 weeks were terrible. I didn’t feel like happy, bubbly, positive Kimi, I felt like a shell of a person, ready to explode, ready to scream, to break down… Now I’m back to smoking, but Corey just hit 5 months not smoking. I don’t understand why I cannot quit. I think I’m afraid to feel like that again, although what I am currently feeling is close. I’m tired of my life, but I am nothing but a thinker. So many wonderful things GOD is calling me to do, and I ignore Him. The only time I feel good or any sense of purpose, is when I’m at church. I don’t know what to do, or how to get myself back, but thank you for this post. I luv u girl ♡

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    1. Sweet Kimi!! Forgive me for not reading this earlier!! I just put a new post up and saw this comment! I am so proud of you for how far you have come, I really hope that I can catch up with you in person and hear about all the amazing things that God has done with you!! I’m encouraged to hear that you are desiring to quit your smoking habit. I hope that you know that that in itself is a big step. It’s also important to remember that some things don’t change overnight, it can be a process. But God loves to show us things that we didn’t know about ourselves or know about Him in our process of becoming more like Jesus. I will be praying for you, sweet friend. I love you!

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  3. Tareja, your thoughts of all that is beautiful, is my thoughts about you. You bring out Jesus in you. You show us how His glowing light can glow in us too. It was like walking beside you and seeing everything you saw. I know God is leading you and Nathan to a special path, in His mountain, to give you both a gift of life here in His beautiful home He has given both of you. Thank you for sharing your love of Our Lord and Savior😘❤️

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    1. Hi Judy!! I am so sorry that I didn’t see this comment until now. 😦 Thank you for your encouragement and for your hugs and friendship! You have been the light of Christ to us, too! ❤ I praise God for you!

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  4. You are so loved by God, I continue to pray for u and know He is and will bless you beyond what u could ever imagine. I so enjoy reading ur blogs and feel so encouraged after reading. Take care and God bless!!! ❤️🙏😇

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    1. June, I still love looking back at how we met. I know that was a divine appointment! I’m so thankful that you take the time out of your day to read what God has laid on my heart. God bless you, my friend!!

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  5. Your blog reminded me of the emotions i felt during my time of infertility and incredibly, God used Yelloestone in my life too. At my weakest, I traveled to Yellowstone and he brought beauty amd healing. May God continue to show you how precious you are to him snd near he is in those moments of pain.

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    1. Mary, that is amazing!! Yellowstone is a beautiful place of healing, that is for sure! Thank you for leaving this comment and taking the time to read my blog. ❤ I hope that we can get together soon, and I hope that you've been well! Our God is amazing!

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  6. I just listened to your podcast on sarah’s laughter. It made me so happy, your Jesus personality reminds me so much of myself. Love you. I’m believing for babies for you as I believe for myself, cyster.

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    1. Shawandie, thank you, sweet girl, for listening to my podcast of what God has done during my journey. It’s so important to keep the faith and eyes on Jesus, as you well know!! Praying for the deepest desire of your heart to be answered!

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